Clarity

Okay, so, I'm really falling down. I'm falling apart. I'm in a perfect possition to pray. I know this. I need to ask God to come down here and save me, save me from myself. Lord, I'm scared. I'm dabbling in things that can kill me. I'm basically sinning with my eating disorder. Today, my boyfriend of 15 months, the love of my life, asked me if I was still doing my eating disorder, and I lied to his face. I said, no I stopped. But I haven't stopped. Lord, HELP ME. Why can't I see what you see in me?

This ED has taken so much from me. My ability to see myself clearly in Your eyes. My ability to focus on things,like school work, and I'm a freshman in college, and I'm pretty sure I'm going to fail out. Lord, come save me.